This is so tough. Everyone said it would get easier Kevin. But every time something nice happens or something good, it hurts really deep down because your not here to share it with me. My baby girl is due to be born soon, shes just not wanting to stay in till fulltime. I think she knows mummy needs something to keep her going, because each day is getting tougher. I just wish I could guarentee that your happy where you are and that you know how much we all love and miss you You are forever in my thoughts Kevin, my life is blessed to have ever had you in it, you are so special and I love you Please help me be strong big bro xxxxxxxx