Big bro I havnt been on this website for a few weeks now, and I havnt been able to post anything for a month or two and I feel bad. My baby girl, Brodie Maia was born on 17th December, she is just beautiful. It hurts so much to think you will never hold her, and ive not been able to pull myself together enough to come on here. I feel bad because ive been trying to block out the pain. The birth of Brodie has been so special and means so much to me, that I dont want to get upset of the thought your not hear to share my happiness...its selfish and im sorry. Christmas was so special because it was your nieces very first christmas, but it was so painful because you werent there. I tried not to cry, but I miss you so much big bro :( Life just isnt the same Please watch over Brodie, we have already had a scare and thought we were going to lose her :( I love you so much big bro, and miss u more each day your gone forever my hero Sha x x x x x x