It's been a while big bro, since ive been online. We have finally moved house, got settled in and got net etc set up so I can yet again vent some thoughts on here again. Not one day has went by without you running through my mind. Its been really tough for me the past few weeks. Things have been really stressful, theres been concerns for the baby and ontop of all that I miss you more than anything in the world. Its breaking me. As my due date draws closer the thoughts that you will never hold my baby haunt me. It hurts to know there will be one face not there to welcome the baby. I try and cling to the thought that your there watching over us all and feeling the love we have for you, that will never die. I hope I can be a good mum and make you proud. None of our lives are the same without you here Kevin, we miss you so much and would do anything to have you back. I look to the sky and hope one of the stars sparkling above me is you. Love you always, and forever Your wee sis xxxxxx