I was told this would get easier over time, but it only seems to get worse. Each day without you hurts more. When does it end big bro? I see your face smiling in those pictures and my stomach churns to think ill never get to see it in person again. It hurts so much. There are people who dont deserve what they have in life, yet you deserved so much more than you had. There is so many things I would say to you if I ever got that one last chance, even though me and you both were rubbish and letting out our feelings! One day big bro, when my time comes, ill join you where u are and we will live forever together, laughing and joking around and getting upto our usual antics. Im going to try and sleep for now, I hope to see you in my dreams again tonight big bro. Love you always and forever, your wee'ist sis ;) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx