We visited the scene where you took your last breath today. It was a strange experience, I kept assuming in my head I was going to find you alive and well. The empty land hit hard. We left lots of flowers, but we didnt know where exactly you were. I want to go back up myself, maybe spend some time there. I miss you so much Big Bro, everytime I close my eyes I see your face. Everything reminds me of you. I dont know how to accept your gone or how I wont ever cuddle you again. I just wish I knew where you were now, and if your happy at at peace. Its supposed to get easier, but everyday the tears hurt more. Love you big bro xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx